Thanks for joining me. I am 6 years into my journey of recovery. While suffering the occasional slip I have stayed focused and kept my eyes on the prize. The minute I forget that I once lived a life of incarceration, crime, near death experiences, homelessness, and misery that life will become my present reality. This blog will share both my success stories and failures. I will be completely honest regardless of my recovery status. Hopefully you will understand the struggle of the addicted a little better by following my story and fight with addiction. I am proud of the title “drug addict” because I’ve come so far but even if I end up back where I once was I at least know I have what it takes to succeed. 5 years of success has shown me that and I hope the next 5 I can be more successful in keeping my sobriety and eventually even someone that normal people consider successful. If not for my struggles with drugs I most likely would be there already but I am very open with my addiction and while in recovery for 6 years, I have not been clean 6 years. I consider myself successful because I have changed and continue to better my life yet some family and friends consider me a failure because I still use regardless of how much I’ve changed my life for the better. I have multiple relapses but have never given up and have always gotten help once my use is out of control. Currently I am waiting for a bed in detox but that doesn’t make me a failure. It makes me a drug addict who has changed his life but still struggles with his addiction. I am not a member of any of the As groups. Unfortunately they think I’m a failure even though professionally, personally, and every way but consecutive clean days I am more successful than 90% of them. Consecutive days clean is my weak spot. Meaningful life change for the better is my strong one. Hopefully with this blog and my upcoming trip to detox I can change that and put together a streak Ol Bill and his friends are impressed by. We’ll see soon. 5/20/2020. My last day waiting for detox, I hope.

Sometimes you can only find heaven by slowly backing away from Hell…

Quote by Anonymous Drug Addict